Opening blog....what kind of person has a Blog?
and why?
For me I have found that I dont have anyone strong enough I can off load to.
I dont mean that in a egotistical or non trusting way... i mean my mates have enough shit of their own to deal with, trust me I am walking some of them thru it.
And thats what led me here.
I've over stretched myself.
I have my own MH past and may be an Empath .. so I am trying to support 3 people with MHI. Taking them out for coffee, regular texts and stupid memes.. small token gifts in the mail in a child like naive attempt to distract them from their own version of hell....whilst standing in my own.
Have you seen that film "Constantine" with Keanue Reeves... I feel like I've seen that other place somewhere.
But the Earth is in the midst of a Pandemic and I wish for the 1st lockdown to return.
I could walk for an hour and see/hear no one. not one car, person, bus. Just birds singing and clean air. I wished the world was like this more often...abandoned. Just me there.
Tonight i found myself craving just that and got FURIOUS at any sign of life, car headlights on my bedroom ceiling, Beep Beep Beep of a reversing truck..please everyone, just fuck off a while eh?
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